the summer in and out list
05: very highly desired and anticipated by millions around the world
it’s not summer yet, but i have been putting off writing this for so long for some odd reason. this is a post first third / pre first half / too late for Q1 too early for Q2 wrap up of things that i have been hating and things that i have been enjoying and things that i have been hoping to enjoy and things that i am anticipating to hate.
i quickly scribbled this list in my little red journal on the plane home after the semester ended. i feel like the negativity from finals season is still brewing in me. so i’m going to keep that negativity going and start with the outs.
outs:
feeling the pressure of school; swifties (have always been out but even more so now); random ass celebrity drama (re: swifties); being melodramatic (but only until the weather cools down again in the fall); doing nothing all summer long; home cooked meals (that i don’t cook!); heavy on dairy OUT; soft launches are still very much out; procrastination; feeling bad about not reaching my goals; sounding stupid when i talk; indecision; thinking too much but not writing it down; dating apps are still out – even for a quick game of smash or pass; talking out of my ass; cherry cola (unfortunately); poetry books
ins:
making lists like these; the listicle type article might also be having a comeback in my world; having a job; learning how to bake; writing more / reading more / talking more / doing more; hanging out with people (but also being by myself); wearing copious amounts of blush and lipgloss; hydration and drinking water and having a cute little water bottle that i bring around everywhere; sparkling water – mostly aha! (re: hydration); peach iced tea; learning how to make homemade peach iced tea; megan thee stallion lockdown; figuring out my post college plans (dun dun dun!!!); brown eyeshadow as eyeliner; k-dramas; honey blonde #27 curly braids; kale salads; re-entering my pinterest era; and simultaneously fully re-entering my spotify playlist era; still being deep into my sober by lorde era (we might have to allow some healthy doses of melodramaticism for when i have it on repeat); putting my name in front of everything (e.g fejirocore; fejiroville; fejcore, etc.) asking for help; painting and crocheting and arts and crafts and ceramics and pottery and physical creativity; beauty supply lip gloss; wired earphones; being outside (but like literally being one with nature and all that jazz); developing the expired film on my old ass film camera
plus the spotify playlist that has received my most listens as of late: